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22/5/2011
parte1:
 ۳۲salam ast.farzande khanevadehi mamoli ba sarneveshti mamoli.madaram mehraban bood va pedaram mehrabantar.kami baadtar madaram mord va pedaram ba tamame an chizi ke man anra roohe valaye ensani minamam ma ra parvarand.ma 4 nafar bodim va ou az tamame an chizi ke mipendasht va mikhast va mitavanest az ma darigh nakard va aknoon ke man 32 sal daram aheste aheste mitavanam darkash konam va be an iman biyavaram.kami baadtar ke madaram mord kasi madaram shod ke shayad midanest va nemitavanest ya mitavanest va nemidanest va ama ma nemidanestim va nemitavanestim.pedaram mand va ou va pelekani ke salhaye omre man ra bala va balatar mibord ta az anha oboor konam.betavanam benoosham anchizi ra ke hes mikonam va hes konam an chizi ra ke mibinam va bebinam va bebinam anchizi ra ke mikhaham va bekhaham an chizi ra ke mitavanam va salha gozasht va man aknoon 32 sal daram,ba tamame an chizhayi ke mitavanam basham va hastam,ba ghaddi motevaset va cheshmani ghahvei va vazni moteghayyer beyne sangini va sabokiye an chizi ke tahhammol mikonam.
emrooz 32 sal  daram.miyaneye an chizi ke tavalod va marg minamand.miyaneye an chizi ke anra dastane parkhashgariye ensani minamand.miyaneye rahe tahamole bare gerane entekhabhaye peyapey va miyaneye an chizi ke nagozire az mandane dar on hastam.
parte2:
alan saate 4/20 daghighe ast va emrooz tavalode man ast.ta alan natijeye khobi dashte.2 ta pirhan azam,shirini pino,ye shishe sharabe ghermez silviya,48 ta payame tabrik to facebook.8 ta payam to maile va ama mohemtarinesh ke hadiyeye mercede boode ta hala.inja rasmeshon eine ke tavalodo saate 12 shabe ke roozesh tavalodete tabrik migan va hadiyashono midan vali man dishab on moghe khabe rostamo sohrab mididam ke ehtemalan dostan baraye tabrik va jashn amadan.silviya sob goft ke harchi montazer shodim nayomadi va man goftam ke nemidonestam.
parte3:
migan ta akharaye khordad ye etefaghayi miyofte.man vali cheshmam kheyli ab nemikhore.dargiriye balayiha to iran badjoor sangin shode.begirim ke 50 darsadesham siya bazi bashe baghiyash ham kafiye vase ye sarshakh shodane hesabi.zaheran hich kodomeshon ghasde kotah amadan nadaran.na ahmadi nejad,na khamenei,na rafsanjani,na darodasteye larijani va na mosavi okarobi.bayad bebinim ki starte avalo mizane harchand khamenei ye karayi karde vali hanooz monde ta natije.
parte4:
sobh raftim ye khorde kharid vase bacheha.azam mond khone va silviya ham raft intervio.shahr shologh nist.chon yeshanbast.fek konam farda jashni ya marasemi chiziye.
parte5:
pino amad.esrar dare ke ba ham berim biroon.azam o silviya khodeshono bikhiyal gereftan.anamariya ham hast.kami oza mashkoke.ba pino miram.
parte6:
hamoon chizi ke fekr mikardam bood.baram tavalod gereftan.bacheha ham amadan.koli chiz hast vase khordan .jave khobiye.alan mohsen va mersede zang zadan va vaghean e vaghean khoshhal shodam.dostaye vagheiyan.
parte7:
farda baghiyasho minevisam.

21/5/2011

21/5/2011
parte1:
kheyli ghamangize.kheyli ghamangize mercede.kheyliha chajiro mishnakhtan to birjand.kheyliha ke hata sare soozani alaghe dashtan vase khondan hatman mishnakhtanesh.maghazeye avalesh to bazare birjand bood.hatman yadete.ghadimi bood.migoft az pedaresh behesh reside.badan amad to khiyaboone shohada.bare avali ke raftam maghazash sadegh hedayat gereftam.porsid ketabasho dost dari?goftam hamasho nakhondam ama onayi ke khondamo dost daram.goft daneshjooyi goftam are.khandid o goft sabr kon.raft poshte maghazash va ba ye ketabe daste dovom ke jelde roozname dasht bargasht.vaghti gereftamesh goft ghable inke inaro bekhoni ino bekhon.kafka bood.saramo tekon dadamo goftam in chande?khandid o goft hichi.ino mehmoone mani va bad az on bood ke har rooz ya rooz darmiyoon miraftam maghazash va bahash harf mizadam.dishab ehsas kardam kheyli behesh niyaz daram mercede vali on mord.ye hafte ghabl az inke ma biyaym mord.dadashesh ye sms zad ke tamoom karde. va tamoom karde bood.sorate ostokhoniyi dasht ba sibilaye porposht.hichvaght be cheshmaye kasi negah nemikard.hamishe migoft to baziye ajibi oftadim mehdi.migoft adama bayad entekhab konan.hamishe bayad entekhab konan va in sakhte.gosheye maghazash poshte pishkhon samavaresh bood ba ye bokhariye kocholo va chand ta ketabe nakhonde ke hamishe ye bargeshon ta khorde bood.mishastim onja va harf mizadim o chay mikhordim.bazi vaghta saatha inja mimondam va badesh vase shab gharar mizashtim vase shab berim khoneye on ya man va bazam harf va in khob bod.kheyli khob bood.maghazash kheyli bozorg naboob.migoft hameye ketabam ja nemishe toosh.badan ye maghazeye dige ham gereft kenaresh va dastobalesh bozorgtar shod.hamishe negarane in bood ke khob ketabaro chide ya na.vaghti dadashesh behem sms zad ke tamoom karde aval bavaram nashod.zang zadam be khanomesh va on gerye kard.natonestam beram majlesesh.natonestam.dishab behem goftan maghazasho sandevichi kardan.mardom miyan onja sandevich mikhoran ba coca o miran va kasi nemidone salha kasi inja neshaste va nafas mikeshide va ketab mifrokhte va in kheyli ghamangize.kheyli ghamangize mercede.
parte3:
emrooz sob ba bacheha footbal bazi kardim.kheyli khob bood.hame roohiyashon behtar bood.bad az bazi chay khordim va ye kam musighi goosh dadim.engar musighi to khone in siyahast.
parte4:
goshimo nabordam.2 ta miskal dashtam.silviyast.az sob rafte biroon.interviyo dasht ba 2ta marde araghi.dobare zang zad.mige sham berim biron.aslan pishnehade khobi nist.
parte5:
hamishe hes mikonim ke dare kheyli  dir mishe,ke bayad tondtar berim,ke bayad hamaro poshte sar bezarim va tondtar va tondtar ein raho tey konim ta be koja beresim...???nemidonam.??vaghean nemitonam ye maghsade farzi va eidealo tasavor konam ke arzeshe in hame ajalaro dashte bashe.faghat fekr mikonim ke bayad berim ,faghat be jolo negah mikonim ,be ghadame baadi va be maghsade baadi.bedone inke yek bar ham ke shode saremono becharkhonim o dorobaremono bebinim,kenareye raho bebinim,ke chiya hast,kiya hastan va kojayim.shayad arzeshe yek lahze tavaghofo dashte bashebazi vaghta.vaghean shayad lazem bashe ke ma gahi vaghtha bedone tars va esteres az hichi va hichki va makhsosan az khodemoon vastim.yek nafas bekeshim ,ye negahe be atrafemoon bendazim,be tamame chizaye bozorgo kochiki ke hast,yek labkhand bezanim va dobare harkat konim.bedone inke fekr konim ke baghiye koja raftan chetor raftan va cheghadr tond raftan.inkhobe fekr mikonam.Gahi vaghtha bayad be chizhaye kochak va dast yaftani ba deghat bishtari negah konim va be khodemoon forsat bedim ta jayi ke zehn va ghalbeman ejaze midahand be anha nazdik shavim va anha ra beshenasim.hamishe etefaghate bozorg mabda va manshae taghirat nistan va notfeye asliye taghirate jahan etefaghate besyar sade va shayad kam ahamiyat bodean.emrooz yek kelip didam ke tamame an chizi bood ke dar morede khodam va donyaye khodam hes mikardam.
parte6:
asro kolan mondam khone.ye kam ba internet var raftam.akhbaro gosh kardam ba yek kam zaban.pino amad.ye ghahve khordim va gharar shod farda  ba ham berim vase bacheha ye meghdar kharid konim.in zaboon yad nadashtanam kalafam mikone hamishe...
parte7:
silviya akhare shab amad.oghatesh talkh bod.makhsosan ba man.bekhatere inke davatesho ghabool nakardim.pashimoon nistam.
parte8:
ye shakhsiyate khase in silviya.28 saleshe.vase doktoraye jameeshenasi mikhone.shadidan aktiv va ba enerji va albate kami ajool.khosh ghalb vali kami ghod.asheghe mosighiye va raghs va harkari ke adamo be vajd biyare.ein karash vaghean bazi vaghta baram azar dahandast ama kolan khoshhale.amade inja vase tahghighesh.etefaghi ba ham ashna shodim.yeki az vakilaye kamp maro behesh moarefi karde bood.ehtemalan gofte soojehaye jadidan ke mitoni bahashon harf bezani.zang ke zad 2 rooze baad hamdigaro didim.ta shab ba ham bodim va dar morede tanha chizi ke harf nazadim mohajerat bood o sharayete ma.chand rooze baad zang zad va goft fek mikonam ma mitonim doostaye khobi vase hamdige bashim va man kheyli bahash mokhalef naboodam.harchand ke motmaenam ke bayad ye kam mohtat basham.
parte9:
alan saate 11/20 daghighast.miram sham.
parte19:
farda tavalodame engar.bacheha to facebook baram payam gozashtan.mobarakam bashe...

20/5/2011

20/5/2011
parte1:
17 saleshe.hamghade mane va kamelan siyah ba moohahe ferferi.mohamado migam.onke marize.vaghi behet negah mikone ye hese agib peyda mikoni.engar hezarta khaheshe nadashtaro ghayem mikone toosh.barashoon vasayele naghashi gereftim ba toope vase footbal.ama mohamad emrooz az sob neshast ye gooshe va naghashi mikard.kheyli chiza keshid.yekishon ye khone bood ba chand ta derakht va ye jade va ye chahe ab va ye ghabre bozorg.azash porsidam ina chiyan.goft khonamoon to kastadaboriya.ghabro neshonesh dadam .in chiye?ye nagah kard behem va shkash rikht.goft pedarame.6 sale inja khabide.goftam chera morde.goft tooye jang.goftam ba ki?dige chizi nagoft.6 nafaran ba madaresh.madaresh kar mikarde o shekameshono sir mikarde o kheyli vaghta ham kari nabode va gorosne.mohamad tanha pesar bode va 4 ta khahar kochektar az khodesh.goft alan tanhan va ehteman goshne.montazeran man kar konam va barashoon pool befrestam.to naghashish khonashon az derakhti ke kenaresh boob ham kochiktar bood.
parte2:
sob ba francheska raftam edareye polis baraye karaye bacheha.marchela ye zane italiye ke peygire karaye mohajerast.vasashon parvande tashkil dadim va ye bargeye shenasayi movaghat barashon gereftim.raftim ye bar va ye ghahve khordim va rajebe inke che karayi mishe kard vasashon sohbat kardim.
parte3:
zane mehrabooniye ferancheska.27 ya 28 saleshe.vaghti rajebe mohajera harf mizane bishtare vaghta cheshmash khise.ghablan to post kar mikarde.sob eino goft.razish nemikarde.amade biroon va oftade donbale komak be mohajera.mige ye chizi han hamishe az jibam mizaram ama raziyam.fek mikonam sadeghane harf mizan.
parte4:
azam va silviya az sob raftan bonbale karaye khodeshon.miran mosahebe o az in joor kara va shab miyan ba kampiyoter ye karayi mikonaneshon.jahayi ke ehtemale marg ya dastgiri dare mano mifrestan.
parte5:
zohr dir residam khone.ye chizi sar saraki khordam va raftam madrese.zabane italiyayi mikhonim.mayim ba ye pesare afrighayi va 3 ta zane afrighayi va yek moalem ke vaghean khobe.ehsas mikonam tamame talasho tavanesho mizare ke ma betoonim zodtar yad begirim ama ghafele az IQ nadashteye ma ya behtar begam man.fek mikonam har rooz ke migzare bishtar dark mikone ke laaaghal dar morede man mikh dar sang mikobe.akhare kelas goft mikhad ma berim vase daneshamoozaye ye madrese sohbat konim.gharar shod maro ba ye dabire fizik ke be nazaresh kheyli adame khobiye ashna kone.
parte6:
vaghti residim khone silviya khone bood.6 rooz dige mire veniz.ma ba pino va yeki az doostash amadim.silviya damagh bood.mige mikham bemoonam.ama daneshgash be ghole khodesh problami dare.kheyli kalafast ama nemidoonam chera.
parte7:
shab pasta khordim.rahat tarin chiziye ke mishe sakht.taghriban hich harfi rado badal nashob.tamam ke shod harki raft soraghe kare khodesh.
parte8:
zahra zang zad.goft nemitone biyad.shoharesh tasadof karde.aslan khob nist.bishtar tozih nadad.fek mikonam manam kalafe shodam.farda bayad behesh zang bezanam.
parte9:
silviya dare gerye mikone...

19/5/2011

 az avale in safar har rooz say kardam etefagha va chizayi ke fekr mikardam va doost dashtamo mididamo  mineveshtam va vaghean ham omidvar boodam va hastam ke ein etefagh baram edame dashte bashe.chon mitonam begam to ye sharayeti hastam ke daem ye chizaye shayad jadid ,shayad ajib,shayad ... nemidonam.ama midonam badha mishe ye chizi az tosh dar avord.moteasefane avalihasho to labtabe ghablimon bood ke be salamati bordanesh.badiyasho neveshtam to ye daftarche ke be salamati khis shod zire baroon va kheyli safehash daghoon shod. 

parte1:
emrooz ye zano shohare javoon inja khodkoshi kardan.ba mashin raftan to darya.migan zane mariz boode va forsate ziyadi nadashte.midoneste mimire.pesare ham midoneste.khodeshono andakhtan to darya.ba mashin.bad az nesfe rooz tonestan mashino biyaran biroon.hameye roznameha neveshtan o aks andakhtan.sob ke davood o eisaro bordam bimarestan didam.roznamash roo mize doktor bood.
parte2:
inja 8 nafar pesare siyah poosto be ma sepordan.beheshon sar mizanim o karashono mikonim.kheyli khoban.hichi nemidoonan.na kampiyoter,na internet,na mohajerat va na ghanoon.faghat to sareshoon bode ke ouropa jaye khobiye ,vase kar vase zendegi va amadan va khoshhalan.parishab 2 tashon mariz shodan.yejoor bimariye posti dashtan ke bishtar shode.emrooz sob bordameshon bimarestan.daem to nakheshon bodam.aksolamalaye jalebi dashtan.moshkele davood jedi nist vali mohamad karesh gir dasht.doktor ino goft.bayad 10 rooz esterahat kone va daroo.hamonja rooznamaro didam.akse mashineshono to safheye avale roozname andakhte boodan.
parte3:
zabooneshon faransast.in 8 nafaro migam.nemitonam khob bahashon sohbat konam.bishtar ba pantomim be ham chizi mifahmoonim.ama mitonim karemono rah bendazim.silviya faransash khobe.vaghti on hast moshkele ziyadi nadarim
parte4:
zohr makaroni dashtim.albate ba raveshe italiyayiha.silviya sakhte bood.man ke residam hardotashon por bad bodan.fek konam ba ham kal andakhtan.hardoshon ghodan va hazer nistan be hich onvan az mozeshon kotah biyan.raftam to otagh .ye kam to sita charkhidam va bad nahar.hala dobare ba ham khob bodan va kabkeshon khoros mikhone.gharar shod vase chape ketabe azam shab ye jashne kocholo begirim.3 nafari ke badan shod 5 nafari.pino o anamariya ham amadan.
parte5:
asr ba bacheha raftim fotbal.zood khaste shodam o neshastam kenar.
parte6:
shab amadan.pino o annamariya.ye kam nooshidim va sohbat kardim.chize ziyadi dar morede iran nemidonan.faghat inke onja shologhe va hokomate diktatoriye.say kardam ye chizayi barashon begam.az mardomemoon .az koche khiyaboona,az adatamoon o az khoshhaliya o narahatiyamoon.ye kam khaste shodam.amadam to otagh va tipe mikonam.vali fek konam ona motaghedan hanooz hala mehmoonimoon be jaye khobesh reside.be hamechi mikhandan.be har harfe khonaki ye saat ghasho rise miran.
parte7:pino amad.bayad beram.bazi vaghta labkhande zoraki az meg sakhttare

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